The Healing Powers of Psychedelics: My Experience with Ayahuasca

Memarzadeh Ali
6 min readDec 19, 2022
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As I sat in the dimly lit ceremonial hut, surrounded by the lush greenery of the Amazon rainforest, I couldn’t help but feel a sense of nervous excitement. I had come to Peru in search of healing and self-discovery, and I was about to embark on a journey unlike any I had ever experienced before. I was about to drink ayahuasca, a powerful plant medicine with the ability to bring about profound psychological and spiritual transformation.

But before I could drink the ayahuasca, I had to go through a series of preparatory steps. The shaman leading the ceremony, a traditional healer with years of experience working with plant medicine, explained the importance of purification and cleansing before the ceremony. This involved fasting, abstaining from certain foods and activities, and performing various rituals to prepare my body and mind for the journey ahead.

As I followed the shaman’s instructions, I couldn’t help but wonder what was in store for me. I had heard stories about the powerful visions and insights that ayahuasca could bring, but I was also aware of the challenges and difficulties that some people experienced during the ceremony. I tried to stay focused on the present moment and trust in the process, knowing that whatever happened, it would be an opportunity for growth and learning.

As the day of the ceremony approached, I found myself becoming more and more nervous. But as I arrived at the shaman’s hut and saw the altar adorned with candles, crystals, and other sacred objects, I felt a sense of calm wash over me. I knew that I was in good hands and that I was exactly where I was supposed to be.

The shaman greeted me with a warm smile and invited me to take my place on the mat. As I settled in and prepared to drink the ayahuasca, I couldn’t help but feel a sense of gratitude and appreciation for this opportunity to heal and grow.

As I closed my eyes and took my first sip of the medicine, I had no idea what was in store for me. But I knew that whatever happened, I was ready to face it with an open heart and a willingness to learn. And with that, my journey with ayahuasca began.

As the ayahuasca began to take effect, I felt a sense of warmth and relaxation wash over me. The dimly lit ceremonial hut and the soothing sounds of the shaman’s chanting faded into the background, and I found myself drifting into a deep state of consciousness.

At first, I saw nothing but darkness. But as I focused my attention inward, I began to see patterns and shapes forming in the void. They were colorful and vibrant, pulsating with energy and life.

As I watched, the patterns and shapes transformed into images and scenes from my past. I saw memories that I had long forgotten, moments of joy and pain, love and loss. It was as if a veil had been lifted, and I was able to see things with a new level of clarity and understanding.

I saw myself as a child, playing and laughing with friends. I saw myself as a teenager, struggling with the challenges of growing up. And I saw myself as an adult, grappling with the complexities and hardships of life.

As I watched these scenes unfold, I felt a deep sense of emotion wash over me. I felt joy and sadness, love and pain. It was as if all the feelings and experiences of my life were coming to the surface, and I was able to see and feel them in a way that I had never experienced before.

As the visions continued, I found myself going deeper and deeper into my subconscious. I saw memories and experiences from my past that I had long forgotten, and I began to understand things about myself and my life that I had never realized before. It was a powerful and transformative experience, and I knew that it was just the beginning of my journey with ayahuasca.

As the ceremony went on, I found myself alternately laughing and crying, feeling both elated and overwhelmed. It was a rollercoaster of emotions, and I couldn’t have predicted where the journey would take me next.

But through it all, I felt a deep sense of love and connection to something greater than myself. I felt a sense of unity and oneness with the world around me, and I knew that I was exactly where I was meant to be.

As the effects of the ayahuasca began to wane, I lay on my mat, tears streaming down my face. I felt a deep sense of healing and transformation. In that moment, I knew that I had been given a gift, a chance to see myself and the world in a new way.

And with that, my journey with ayahuasca came to an end. As I sat up and looked around, I saw that the other participants in the ceremony were also emerging from their journeys, their faces etched with emotion. We hugged and cried and laughed, sharing our experiences and insights with one another. It was a beautiful and powerful moment, and I knew that it was just the beginning of my journey of healing and self-discovery.

In the days and weeks that followed the ayahuasca ceremony, I found myself more present and grounded than ever before. I had a newfound sense of purpose and clarity, and I felt more connected to myself and others. The experience had been profound and transformative, and I knew that it had the power to heal and transform others as well.

But the journey didn’t end there. In the aftermath of the ceremony, I found myself facing new challenges and insights that I had to navigate. Some days were easier than others, but I knew that I was on a path of growth and self-discovery.

One of the biggest challenges I faced was integrating the insights and experiences I had during the ceremony into my everyday life. It wasn’t always easy, but I made a conscious effort to apply what I had learned to my relationships, career, and personal growth.

I also found myself seeking out new ways to connect with myself and the world around me. I began practicing meditation and yoga, and I spent more time in nature, reconnecting with the beauty and wonder of the world.

Overall, the experience of working with ayahuasca was one of the most transformative and healing experiences of my life. I came away from it with a deeper understanding of myself and the world, and I knew that it was just the beginning of my journey of self-discovery and growth.

After my experience with ayahuasca, I came to understand the true healing power of psychedelics. It was a journey that took me deep within myself, revealing layers of trauma and pain that I had been carrying for years. But through the guidance of the ayahuasca medicine and the support of the group, I was able to confront these emotions and let them go. The transformation I experienced was nothing short of miraculous, and I am forever grateful to the healing powers of this sacred plant medicine. It has not only changed my perspective on myself and the world around me, but it has also opened my eyes to the potential for healing and growth that exists within all of us. I believe that everyone has the capacity for self-exploration and healing, and I encourage anyone who is struggling to consider the possibility of incorporating psychedelics into their own healing journey.

If you enjoyed reading about my experience with ayahuasca and are interested in learning more about the healing power of psychedelics, please follow me on Medium or Twitter. I will be sharing more of my journey and insights on this topic, as well as other personal growth and self-exploration topics.

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Memarzadeh Ali

Always on the lookout for new knowledge and experiences. Sharing my discoveries and thoughts on all kinds of topics on my Twitter feed. @Arnaultmemarza1